day eight (almost nine!)

So I've been quit for over a week now squeeeee. 80 cigarettes, 4 packs not smoked, and about $20 bucks saved.

Things seem to be getting better every cigarette I don't have. I have about a handful of craves a day. Mostly when people are at the house (visitors I mean, not just people in general.. that would suck), I'm a little socially anxious and the way I coped was sitting outside with a drink and a smoke. I still miss that. I probably will for awhile. In the car, when I wake up and after I eat haven't been as bad as I first guessed. I just don't do it now? Though, this past weekend while I was driving out of town and got lost a few times I freaked out more and wished I had a cigarette in my hand.

I'm in more control of my emotions than last week (especially Tuesday-Thursday.. days 2-4). I haven't cried since then. Which is really nice. I couldn't stand myself being weepy. I'm a little afraid when I down my patch dose that may come back, but it's not really worth thinking about right now. I'm starting to get less annoyed about things to. But it's definitely a day by day thing.

I like how my mouth tastes and how I smell, that part is the bomb. I'm looking forward to seeing my checking account at the end of the month, now that I won't be spending ~$40/week on cigarettes.

One thing people don't really talk about is the crazy ass dreams you get when you wear the patch through your sleep. They are insanely vivid and can range from really great, to your worst nightmares. So weird. I also had my first smoking dream last night. I don't remember what exactly happened, but I remember that I woke up thinking I had had a cigarette. Also very weird.

Walking is great for my piece of mind too. I've enjoyed how much it's been helping me stay sane and cope. I look forward to getting into shape this summer. Well, at least being more active.

I have felt a bit depressed over the past week, which I think is party smoke related, but also due to the fact I'm out of school, working part-time in a house where everyone else works 9-5 Mon-Fri. I don't have a huge desire to get out of bed in the morning. I'm pretty lethargic all day (even after some coffee and a nice walk). I also just feel a bit sad in general. I need to either work more, or find a good hobby for the summer.. I have more free time now that I'm not outside smoking, etc ;)

Again, to everyone who's been giving me support.. thank you so much. It means a hell of a lot. Also, to those who are quitting along with me.. I'm really proud of you. I know it isn't easy, but it's the best thing you can be doing for your body.