Friday, June 6, 2008

day five

120 hours without smoking.. five days.. around 50 cigarettes (2 1/2 packs) I haven't put through my body.

Today has been slightly better than yesterday. I'm a bit more in control of my emotions than I have been the previous three days. I'm still more emotional and irritable than I like, and my outbursts have been fewer. I think I'm in the thick of the quit right now, so as long as I can make it without any casualties the next week or so, everything just might be okay.. ;)

Things that have helped:

  • Walking.. being outside in general.
  • Music.. especially in the car, turning it up loud and singing has helped so incredibly much.
  • Tea and toast.. in the mornings. I'm now eating breakfast instead of smoking with coffee!
  • Crying. As much as I've hated it, I'm much happier crying than running to a cigarette.
Speaking of, I'm curious to how much a crutch cigarettes have been to me over the past four years. I wonder if I used it so much that now actually dealing with things is a little overwhelming. I also know that my body is out of whack, and I definitely won't be losing it every time I think someone gives me the stink eye forever.

As much as I hate feeling like this, I really haven't "craved" a cigarette. There have been many occassions where it felt natural to go have one, but after a split second I always remember "I don't do that any more" and find something else to do. Maybe twice have I considered smoking.. and that's lasted about 2-3 minutes each.

I noticed while I ate dinner I could taste everything and it was fantastic.

Thanks to everyone who's been reading this all week and have been giving me support. Every single "you can do it!" and "I'm proud of you." helps more than you know.

Off to the beach this weekend! My first vacation smoke freeeeeeeee...

3 comments:

Dimitra said...

Hey, I saw your post on the Q and checked out your blog. Just wanted to say GREAT JOB so far, I think the way you've went about it (reading your first post) was great. You've thought this out, you know how it's going to go cause you've done this before, and you're prepared and READY. I am on Day 8 (my 2nd SERIOUS time quitting aside from those whims where I thought I could just stop but only lasted a day. My first quit lasted only 2 weeks and a few days.) and I'm hoping to make this one forever. How many did you smoke? How are you feeling? GOOD LUCK! I'll bookmark your page to keep me motivated should I have a moment of feeling like I want to relapse.

Dimitra said...

oops, I noticed. you were a 1/2 a pack day smoker too! :)

Kathie said...

Hi - Saw your post on Ravelry and followed to your blog. Great job!! I am on day 14 right now and it keeps getting better. I know what you mean about always planning for your next smoke. The stupid thing was that I would feel panicky if I thought something would thwart my next smoke. I was even panicky about quitting because of that. I don't think about smoking so much now and am really glad this is working. I am doing the Chantix thing and love it. Would recommend it highly! Keep up the good work.